one of the most overwhelming days at work this week, to the point where i literally broke down at my seat. hate days like this but so thankful its over.
last working day of the week tmr. cant wait to welcome the weekends already.
-4th april 2013
"This is life - people will screw you over. You'll fight with your family. You'll witness things that will change you forever. You'll blame new lovers for things old lovers did. You'll lose best friends you thought would always be there. Yo5'll come to realize that everyone has a past. You'll cry, you'll laugh, and you'll embarrass yourself. But then, you'll find your very own moment where none of that matters; where you can sit back and realize that shit happens to the people who can handle it and that this is who you are, and no one should want to change you, including yourself."
still trying to figure out who i am
you know something isnt right when a colleague of yours who always and loves to call you by your nickname starts calling you by your name instead and stops greeting you whenever you pass by each other in the office.
like the other day, when me and a group of my colleagues were in the lift on the way to lunch, usually she would be screaming “SMALL ONE!” and tries to poke my sides to make me jump. but that day, she didnt even looked at me. didnt even say anything to me at all.
i dont know what happened or why, but her abrupt non-talking to me affected me quite badly, if i were to be honest.
-1st april 2013
pedas soto ayam is very pedas soto ayam. i think the makcik there was trying to torture me and my colleague to death by extreme spiciness. i literally took only two spoonful of the soup and my mouth and throat was burning.
aunty ching was like “why you both sss-sss-ahh-ahh like that?” (you know that sound you make when you eat something spicy, yeah thats it). for the record, i can tahan spicy food ok? but this.. this was too overwhelmingly spicy to the point where my eyes were almost tearing and i couldnt keep my mouth closed.
both of us ended up eating only the lontong and the chicken completely drained from the sop. we were saying if anyone has diarhoea or flu, this would probably be a remedy. i mean, look at the soto sop man! i knew it was trouble before i even opened the lid!
- 11th march 2013
i took the afternoon off today. it wasnt a planned one. just decided to after talking to a colleague and she told me a truth i didnt need to hear and my brain just shuts down right after that. you cant work when your brain shuts right.
they always say the truth hurts. it does, it really really does. i get that the truth is.. well, the truth. but i dont need her to tell me. i dont need truths like that to be told, it doesnt need to be pointed out.
mum asked why i took a sudden half day. i told her i had an unbearable stomach ache and just wanted to rest at home. which is partly true, because my stomach’s been giving me problems the entire week.
my mood’s pretty much at the downside right now. i dont feel like coming back to the office tmr to tie up the loose ends, nor do i feel like attending the wedding after that. if i am going to be honest, id say, the demons of 2012 is very slowly creeping up my back and threatening to bring me down again- guess they havent completely vanished yet.
-8th March 2013
so glad abah fetched me home today. the pictures above obviously doesnt do justice, but i thought the sunset this evening was really beautiful.
-4th march 2013
