yesterday night, amidst all the mixed emotions built up throughout the week, i had typed this full-blown rant on a particular colleague who pretty much was the cause of it.
crazy heavy workload caused me to stress out like never before along with that same colleague who was supposed to share my load but didnt. needless to say, it led me to a breakdown at work itself. i failed at staying strong this time and actually lost faith. guess i was just too overwhelmed.
anyway, i had meant to publish that rant (and backdate it as always), but then i read it again and it was super angsty and rude so… that should never see the light of day ever.
march… was definitely one of the worst months so far. january was amazing. february was a little wobbly. but march was the worst. and now, it’s brought itself into april. first week of april has been pure torture so to speak, worst, i was nursing a sore throat and the on-off flu. and as if to top an already bad week/month, my self esteem took another very very very bad hit to the point i dont even want to go out and face the world.
it sucks. it really does. it”s only been 3+ months into 2013, but march/april was like a summary of the entire 2012. im kinda of scared to see what else the rest of this month, or year, has in store for me to be honest.
too bad time cant be turned back.
one of the most overwhelming days at work this week, to the point where i literally broke down at my seat. hate days like this but so thankful its over.
last working day of the week tmr. cant wait to welcome the weekends already.
-4th april 2013
you know something isnt right when a colleague of yours who always and loves to call you by your nickname starts calling you by your name instead and stops greeting you whenever you pass by each other in the office.
like the other day, when me and a group of my colleagues were in the lift on the way to lunch, usually she would be screaming “SMALL ONE!” and tries to poke my sides to make me jump. but that day, she didnt even looked at me. didnt even say anything to me at all.
i dont know what happened or why, but her abrupt non-talking to me affected me quite badly, if i were to be honest.
-1st april 2013