was still in the ofis at that hour yesterday. been a while since i overtimed- not that i missed it. at least S was there to sorta accompany me before she left to study with her friends at nearby MacD. she even declared gdragon’s “That XX” mv was out when 11pm struck and came over to my seat and played the video on her phone.
staying that late in the ofis wasnt so bad. just.. pretty eerie especially after S left and i was made to turn off all the lights there are. pitch black.
Lately I’ve been feeling like I don’t don’t exist. Everyone seems to push me away and ignore me. It’s like I’m a ghost, people just see right through me. No one notices me or talks to me anymore. Even when I’m surrounded by a bunch of people I’ll still feel that way.
not really lately, more like ever since i was born or something.
It’s like I’m a ghost, people just see right through me. this happens all the time. in school, at work. it’s like im there, but not there at the same time. i mean, i dont blame them. im not goodlooking enough to give the best first impression, neither do i have the best of personalities so why would anyone want to pay or give me attention right. its like im not worth anyone’s time or something.
dont get me wrong though. im still thankful for the people who did acknowledged my existence and somehow, managed to stick with me till now. but, i wont be surprised if one day, they ended up leaving me as well.
another night of another pretty full moon
31st july 2012, 11hb ramadhan
so glad to be able to watch 4minute performed live after only being able to see them on tv/computer hoho :) definitely the best performance of the night! if it werent for them being one of the stars performing at last night’s straits times star concert, i probably wouldnt even have bothered going.
i just love the view that greets me every time i eat at aunty’s pantry. packed lunches from home + that view = me eating in peace and mind completely freed from work (well at least for that one hour!).
i love eating alone there. it’s just peaceful and quiet.